Quotes from souls without salvation

"You can have all you ever wanted if you just try",
they say, but it seems my tries are worthless.
I'm never good enough for something that escalated even before my birth,
leading to torment and restless nights.
and it looks like nature created me to laugh at my faults and my almost-truths
that never come out the way I would like them to.

"Your eyes are just like two stars" he told me once upon a time,
but I remember the brightest stars always fade away so fast.
(Maybe that's why I became so dull to him after just a few days,
and maybe that's why he left with the autumn and the winter came
biting harshly and strongly on my soul - lover of springs and summers)

"She's a hurricane, born to destruction without causes"
was what I always heard from my family when I sat by the kitchen table
waiting for some understanding but only receiving criticisms.
You know? Fuck you.
I know I'll never be enough for some people in this world ever fated to war,
painted with the blood of the ones who have fallen to the ground long before
we learn to walk and write.

(And I know my soul is not the only one who never could be saved.)